By Nancy Virden (c)2020
Lately, I’ve fallen off the wagon eating-disorder-wise. On the surface, it may look like I need a simple solution. Nonetheless, if a simple solution could work for me, it would have by now.
That is no excuse; it is reality. For some of us, food has become a much deeper issue than a diet can fix. People may say addiction is purely rebellious and must be confessed as sin and addicts must repent. I do not disagree except for the “purely”. Others may say it is only a mental obsession, lack of self-control. That’s true, except for the “only”. Still, others will claim there is no such thing as addiction when it comes to food or eating disorders. That is a big mistake.
Truth is, we end up in trouble – that is, all people do – when we allow something or somebody to be more central in life than God and His Word. Even though I have fallen into that category, you do not hear me adding only or purely to the statement.
A man who had been born blind was given a miraculous gift of sight after Jesus put mud on his eyes and told him to wash it off. Bartimaeus, also blind, simply asked to see, and Jesus healed him. Coins showed up in a freshly caught fish, a dead body revived when Jesus called his name, and sick people were made well at Jesus’ simple words, “get up.” Yes, the only permanent solution to our problems of any size is faith in Jesus Christ. Yet there are as many ways he helps as there are people.
My brother, three years older, pulled a tiny wagon with his tricycle. I rode in it between the ages of 1 and 2. It worked like a seesaw though. He would get off the tricycle and backward I went, hitting my head on the floor. Repeatedly.
Yes, I can truthfully say, the wagon dumped me. I wish that excuse worked now. On the wagon of recovery, one can say aloud, “I’m going to stop this” and simultaneously continue to use. An addict cannot quit. Seriously. Cannot. Willpower does not cut it.
The answer to beating an addiction of any kind, or compulsive behavior, an eating disorder, or habitual overindulgence (whatever you want to call it- suit yourself) is a strong, involved, intensely supportive network. Jesus is the first call. He is the Highest Power. His support is everything, yet not the only thing. If we accept him as Savior of our souls and pray, he will put the exact answers we need in our way to choose or ignore. For many, it is people who can mentor or inspire us.
That is where I am now; I’m in need of a Savior. Jesus has already saved my soul, now I need him to help me outrun this eating disorder. I know my request for help will be met with mercy and answers.
I’d love to be one he just speaks to and suddenly I am free. It may be that he needs to splash me with mud first. I trust him to know the best way.
Today’s Helpful Word
The Lord is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children,
so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;
for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
Always the Fight Ministries (ATFM) has been displaying compassion for those fighting mental illness, addiction, or abuse since 2012. Nancy is the founder and voice of ATFM and openly shares her emotional resurrection from despair.
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