Always the Fight Ministries: Displaying compassion for those fighting mental illness, addiction, or abuse. (c)2019 Nancy Virden
Tonight, I publicly confessed that my lack of sleep is an attitude, a thought process, and not a medical issue. I told this to a group of about ten people from my church because I knew they would pray for me.
At some point in childhood, sleeping became equated with dread. I reasoned that if I stayed awake at night the next day would not come, or at least not so fast. Yet why does it still have a hold on me? I am in my late fifties and experience joy every day.
As many causes as people
After doing a search on the internet, I found several people who can relate. They mentioned a variety of reasons for the problem from general anxiety to fear of failure to not wanting the day to end!
~bexadcox77 pointed out a possible cause and solution in one: It’s hard to view ‘tomorrow’ as a bright new day if you’re dealing with yesterday’s [problems]…
~surpriseDRE had a clinical reason: I used to do this. Heavily. For me, it was because I was very depressed, and I couldn’t stand the idea of another day. *
Or maybe it’s something else
After reading and praying, this problem seems simpler. We develop thought habits whether they be negative or positive, fearful or comforting. By embracing the idea (with awareness or not) that “next days” are dread-worthy, my nights and bedtime remain a challenge. Sheer willpower does not change this very much.
Such unwanted thoughts must be proactively replaced. I am going to attack this old habit with some great advice from social media users:
~Cleverusername531 says to plan joy: … Another thing is I find something I am looking forward to the next day. If I don’t have anything, I try to create something. Is there someone you can interact with tomorrow whose company you enjoy? Is there a particular path you can walk on, can you take a break to listen to music or a podcast?
~bexadcox77 suggests routines that include happiness: All I can say is that I think you will be okay and this will pass as you figure out how to cope with the weirdness of life being somewhat out of your control. You establish routines and fit in stuff that you love to do so you always have that to look forward to.
My friends did pray for me. I believe insight is coming to me tonight because God heard our prayers an hour ago. Planning joy? What a thought!
Today’s Helpful Word
Matthew 6:34 NLT
“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.”
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NOTE: I am not a doctor or mental health professional, and speak only from personal experiences and observations. In no way is this website intended to substitute for professional mental or behavioral health care.
If you are feeling suicidal, or concerned about someone who is, in the U.S. call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or for a list of international suicide hotlines, go here.
If you are suicidal with a plan, immediately call 911 in the U.S. or go to your nearest emergency room. (for international emergency numbers, go here ). Hope and help are yours!
*surpriseDRE said more about clinical treatment for anyone with severe depression. “Psychiatric care (via medication and cognitive behavioral therapy) was what made the difference for me. Without it I don’t think I would still be alive, but it really, really works. It took me trying 9 different antidepressants to find something that worked for me. It’s not always a quick path but it’s so worth it.”