Compassionate Love: Displaying Compassion for Those Who Struggle with Mental Illness (c)2019 Nancy Virden, Always The Fight Ministries
Fear and anxiety dressed up as self-doubt is frustrating.
Saul was a young man who stood by and watched the stoning death of the first Christian martyr, Stephen. One sentence in Saul’s story tells what we need to know about his heart.
“And Saul approved of their killing him” (Acts 8:1).
Saul’s name was changed to Paul after an encounter with the risen Jesus. He then became who we now know as Saint Paul, a Christian preacher and church planter of the first century AD, who wrote much of the New Testament under the inspiration of God.
Paul admitted to a “thorn” in his flesh – that is, something that bugged him and made life more difficult. His issue was not clarified for the readers, so we are left to guess.
Could it have been self-doubt?
He had been a religiously proud and zealous man, a leader once admired. Is it possible then, that without the trappings of a Pharisee and the power of that religious order behind him he may have felt weaker?
He helped to murder early followers of Jesus. How might any one of us deal with trying to teach the families and co-believers of our victims?
Maybe Paul wondered every day what he was doing- maybe he had to start out each morning in faith, trusting that his weakness was the very thing that kept him humble and productive for God’s work.
I do not know, theologians do not know what Paul meant by “a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me…”. all we have are hints. For example, the context of this story is Paul answering an accusation of cowardice.
He wrote,” You are judging by appearances… I do not want to seem to be trying to frighten you with my letters. For some say, “His letters are weighty and forceful, but in person he is unimpressive and his speaking amounts to nothing” (2 Corinthians 10:7, 9-10).
In another letter, this one to a new pastor, Paul wrote, “For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline” (2 Timothy 1:7). Could he have known that truth due to personal experience?
It makes sense that he may have fought self-doubt when face to face with those he once sought to kill. These types of struggles are real, and daily. In person and in his letters, Paul stood up for what is true. Maybe he was a bit quiet and shy (I do not know), but he did not fail to say it like it is. That would be the Spirit of God at work in him.
I am writing to myself today because anxiety plays a large role in how far I push my potential. It frustrates and badgers me until I submit much too much of the time.
No, self-doubt, timidity, anxiety, and fear are not from the Spirit of God. He promises us power when we feel powerless, love for others when we are self-absorbed, and self-discipline when fear threatens to paralyze our every good intention. Overcoming negative emotions is not always a quick work. Sometimes, our thorn remains, and we have to keep walking anyway.
It is because of his power that I speak the truth about my past and current weaknesses when I would rather hide. It is his love that motivates me to share publicly so other hurting people will know hope. Jesus was and is the way where there seems to be no other way.
Wherever I am, it is Jesus I desire most to honor. Whatever Paul’s thorn, he said the same.
Today’s Helpful Word
2 Corinthians 12:8-10
“Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
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I wrote this a couple of years ago….
On occasion I find myself experiencing anxiety from all the issues that showed up throughout the day. This makes me want to ask the question, “Why do people have to deal with anxiety”? Philippians 4:6 (Do not be anxious about anything. Instead….be in prayer & be thankful in every situation. Ask and present your requests to God.)
I have practiced, but not diligently. It sneaks up on me and takes over my mind. I can feel the muscles in my jaw, neck & shoulders begin to tighten. My mind begins to play out scenarios of what could happen. My heart rate begins to increase causing my breathing to get off track. It’s an awful place to find yourself. Think back to the last time you experienced anxiety. Did anything you imagined happen? The enemy plays with our minds and tricks us into believing in lies. What do you think about? Remember, the enemy’s goal is to steal, kill, and destroy. John 10:10
In a dream: I asked God that question.
He said to me, “There IS NO anxiety. I am the creator, and I did not create such a thing. Anxiety is a lie that (satan) created and many people believe in this lie. When the truth is revealed, freedom is achieved. Feelings can be deceitful. They are like spoiled children. You cannot live by feelings alone. Many people put trust in their feelings and live with the consequences. To gain the Fruit of Self Control….one would put their spirit in charge of the mind, feelings, and yes…heart. Spirit is mature. Spirit discerns truth vs. a lie. When you allow the Holy Spirit to lead your spirit, you live more of life’s moments in eternal life. This is the life I created for you! Very few come and stay in this serene place that can be found on earth.
Anyone who knows me well enough knows I’m going to ask questions.
So, I asked: How do I get my spirit to lead? I’m pretty sure my feelings control me. He said: “Submission.” I said: So, somehow I have to get my feelings to submit to my spirit? He said: Not just your feelings, also the mind, and heart.) (Me) How? (GOD) By praying, believing, asking, obeying, loving. Some pray to be in MY Will. My Will is this: For My Son Jesus, to be invited, included, loved, and treasured. When this takes place …you will have found your purpose.