Compassionate Love: Displaying compassion for those who struggle with mental illness  (c)2014 Nancy Virden

Renee* has lived eighty-nine years. She and her husband came to America in the 1950s, young and full of dreams. She was a statuesque blonde fiercely in love and hoping to raise a family with her strong, dark-haired carpenter. He loved her too, and together they built a life.

The carpenter lived to meet two grandchildren. He passed away seven years ago. Renee speaks of him fondly, and shows off pictures from his younger days. For a few brief seconds she seems lighter, then as she finishes telling her tales her eyes return to listlessness.

She lives in a nursing home, unable to walk well enough to be alone. Her remaining family is far away except for a sister who visits once per week and brings her candy. Renee is diligent with physical therapy because she does not want to fall, but other than that and meals in the dining hall, she watches television in her room.

I want to fix things for Renee, do something to make her happy. Only I cannot. Wisdom tells me my role is not savior, but friend.  I visit her, and she is glad when I come by. For maybe an hour per week she is happier, and that is all I can do.

At Christmas time we may be confronted with issues in the world or people in our families we would like to change. Grumpy (or drunk) Uncle John. Silent (or abusive) Aunt Jane. Mom who never seems to understand, or Dad who cannot say I love you. If we could will it, celebrations at our house would look and sound like those lovely holiday movies.

Or maybe we had a wonderful family that is no longer the same due to death or distance. Perhaps misunderstanding has drawn a line between people we care about. With all our heart we want to fix it, and restore things as they were, as they should be.

The first three phrases of the Serenity Prayer are best known. “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

My gifts, money, and time are devoted to spreading the message that every life is valuable, and hope is available. I cannot make anyone believe me. It is not in my power to demolish emotional pain for other people.

After attempting suicide in 2011,  it was nearly impossible to comprehend that my life held value. Therapists invested time and energy to help me see truth while I argued, demanded more of them than was fair, and distrusted their intentions. They used their arsenal of skills, but neither could make me accept what they offered. They could not change me. “That’s your job,” I was told. “Do you want to stay depressed?”

And so it is with the world, our holiday get-togethers, and Renee. Life can be hard and lonely. We are surrounded by people experiencing similar pain. In the end it is up to each person to decide how to react.

We have the power to change only ourselves. 

And then it’s acceptance and serenity all over again.

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or mental health professional. I speak only from personal experiences with and observations of mental illness. In no way is this website intended to substitute for professional mental health care.