Always the Fight Ministries: Displaying compassion for those fighting mental illness, addiction, or abuse. (c)2019Nancy Virden
Once there was a 30-year-old man whose life trajectory was about to do the twist and land him behind a pile of suitcases. All he had done was set out to find his dad’s runaway livestock. A few days later, he was crowned king.
His nation had never had a monarch. Becoming royalty did not even require a battle. The kingship was his to design. It was, proverbially speaking, handed to him on a silver platter.
His name was Saul. Initially, upon hearing the proposal that he become a king, he reacted as many would. “Who am I?” he said. Later, when he was to be presented to the military, he hid behind their baggage. With all authority to demand loyalty, he said nothing to some rebellious warriors who refused to bring him congratulatory gifts.
Granted, Saul lived thousands of years before the hippie movement or modern psychology. Still, he had a full-blown identity crisis.
There are many people with little sense of self (“I don’t own my body” “I’ll do what everyone else wants because I don’t know what I want” “I can’t be …”.) Why this is true is beyond my grade level. The first time someone pointed it out my reaction was “What? A sense of who?” I found it difficult to comprehend a ‘me’. However, each of us can over time, rebuild a healthy identity.
Here is the latest I’m Glad You Are Alive video. My YouTube channel started twelve days ago. This idea had been procrastinated for so long it seemed prudent to just start despite my lack of know-how. Slowly, I am grasping this newfangled young people’s technology. Yes, I know YouTube has been around for some of your entire lives!
What matters is that this project, meant for those who struggle with suicidal thoughts and attempted suicide, has begun. Its amateurish flaws are what I feared so much it didn’t move forward at all.
Chris Tomlin wrote a song with these lyrics, “You are a good, good Father. I know you are, I know you are. I am loved by you. That’s who I am, that’s who I am.”
Discovering God’s love set in me a fire and joy that will not go out. It’s been tested. My prayer is that this particular video and blog will encourage people who are discouraged to discover what identity is, to avoid suicide, and to one day offer their unique gifts to the world.
Today’s Helpful Word
1 Samuel 16:7
The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.
**** COMMENTS ALWAYS WELCOME
NOTE: I am not a doctor or mental health professional, and speak only from personal experiences and observations. In no way is this website intended to substitute for professional mental or behavioral health care.
If you are feeling suicidal, or concerned about someone who is, in the U.S. call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or for a list of international suicide hotlines, go here.
If you are suicidal with a plan, immediately call 911 in the U.S. or go to your nearest emergency room. (for international emergency numbers, go here ). Hope and help are yours!